Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Some Thoughts I'm Having

It's only about 2 days before baby Marshall makes his arrival. I am excited to hold my precious little boy in my arms at last but I can't help thinking about my sweet Gavin.
I'm sure this is normal. I am sad for him. He has no clue how much his little world is about to change. He has been the center of our lives for so long. He has gotten all of Mommy and Daddy's attention. He has been spoiled.
These past few days I find myself giving more hugs and more cuddles and being more emotional when I watch him. He is so special and such a good boy. We have been truly blessed by having him in our family. He is so smart and loving and kind. He is definitely Mommy's little buddy and Daddy's playmate! We have so much fun together, the three of us.
I have always known that Gavin wouldn't be our only child but the transition is making me very emotional. And although I will miss our little family of three I know that becoming a family of four is what God wants for us.
I am excited for Marshall and so is Gavin! Every night when Gavin says his prayers he asks Heavenly Father to bless baby Marshall and then gives my tummy hugs, kisses and "moochies" aka Eskimo kisses. My prayer is that Gavin will adjust well and that I can be a good mommy to both Gavin and Marshall.

2 comments:

jill 'E' jam said...

You'll be a wonderful mother to the both of them. I look up to you and your patience and love. They are very lucky little boys!

Walker Family said...

Ahhh! Paula that made me bawl! I have the SAME thoughts for Nathan...even though my baby is still months away....Just know that no one...not even Marshall will take the place of Gavin in your heart!! You'll make special spots for both boys...and they will grow up thankful to have such a great mommy!