Going to Church

Going to church every week is quite the adventure at our house! Our church is from 1-4 right at nap and lunch time! Its always a battle getting everyone ready and out the door. There is usually a few tears involved. But the end result is always handsome!

I love the little half smile!

And here is the most handsome boy in the whole world! I just love this picture!

And this is after church! He fell asleep in his chair watching Shrek!

Poems

I was going through a box the other day and found my book of thoughts, quotes, and poems. I thought I would post a couple. The first was written when my Mom and I were in Denmark together walking a long the beach where my Grandmother was born and raised. I can still picture my mom just standing there looking out into the sea. She loved Denmark. The second was written right after she was diagnosed with cancer. And the third was written around Christmas after she had past away.

Denmark (written 3/19/03)

As the wind blows
the blade cuts into it
causing the wheel to spin
and my eyes to glaze.

With a blink they clear
as a tear rolls slowly down
my cheek, my heart if full.

This country reaches deep
inside and fills
my heart. As I look out
around me I see the many
windmills across the horizon
and hear the waves crash against
the dunes. The open fields of
farm land surround me and I
take a deep breath and let it
all in.

A strange feeling enters and makes
me wonder. I was not born here,
or raised here, I do not understand
the language or the way of life, yet,
this country calls to me and I can
hear it whisper, Welcome home.


All I need is You (written 6/18/03)

Like a shooting star
you came into my life
and left as quickly
yet everything you gave me still remains.

The words you spoke can
never be lost, the feelings shared in
the timeless moments of friendship last
in the far reaching corner of my memory.

You make me feel completed
your eyes cut into my soul
your gentle smile and soft touch
make the days so much brighter and
life's ruff journey turn smooth.

All I need is you beside me
giving me the strength to face
another day and a hope that
with faith, anything is possible.



Strength Within (written 12/03)

Sometimes life has a way of making
the tears seem so close to the edge.
The dark clouds and thunder come
And you feel so trapped and alone.

The darkness engulfs you
And the light seems to be only a memory.
Time seems to break as nothingness invades.
And the tears begin to fall
With no one there to catch them.

When all hope seems to fail
when there's no where left to turn
Falling on bended knee
Three words are silently whispered
Please help me.

A Warmth begins to grow
so small at first but slowly
Ever slowly the warmth begins to spread.
As heaven's light surrounds you
the dark clouds clear and
the pain begins to fade.

You realize hope never left
and the light and strength
you were searching for
Was never very far away.
They were right inside
just waiting,
waiting for you.

Randomness

Gavin was being so cute this morning. He found his old blanket and wanted me to tie it around him like a cape. The knot didn't last long but he left on his shoulders. He is too funny!

Again with the cape!

Up close and personal!

Hiding behind my pillow!

All feet!

I just love this little guy. He makes my day! He is cute and at such a fun age. I can't believe he is almost 2 yrs old. Where has the time gone! I love being a Mom and feel completely blessed. I am happier right now with my life then I have ever been. I have an amazing husband who loves me for me and makes me laugh everyday and a beautiful, perfect son who loves his mommy so much. We are building a house and have good jobs and amazing family and friends who support us. We have the Gospel! I just feel so blessed.

7 years

Well another year has come and gone. I can't believe how quickly time seems to go by. You know the saying "it gets easier with time?" Well for me I can say that that is absolutely not true. If anything the opposite is true. I think as time passes and I get further along in my life and experience new things I want her here more then ever. This day is always the hardest day of the year for me. I can't help but remember, with great detail, the events of this day. I try so hard to stay strong and not cry and not think about it but that never happens. With out fail I always cry and I always break down. And for me that is unacceptable. I am not an emotional person. I hate crying. I think that is something that I inherited from her. I know it's okay to cry and be sad but I still hate it. I just want her here. I want to talk to her one more time. I want to see her face and hear her laugh. Gosh I miss her. I hate not having a mom. I'm not going to go on and on like I did last year. There really is nothing new to say. I just miss her.

Utah!

After our visit to Idaho we drove down to Utah to visit the rest of the family! On Wed we drove straight from Idaho Falls to Salem and Payson. We stopped in at Eric's Grandma Tippetts and his saw is Aunt Jane too! It was so fun and they loved seeing how big Gavin is getting. Then we went to Eric's Dad! Gavin loved it there. He got to play in a little pool with a slide and got to see horses and cows! After that whenever Gavin saw a big grassy area he would say "Moo's?" We had a great time visiting with everyone. Then as we were driving back up to Sandy we stopped and had dinner with Wags and Brian! I just love that girl! We always have so much fun together! Gavin and McKaylee had fun too! Then on to Sandy! We stopped by Lisyl's for a few minutes and then to Beth's and crashed! The next day I met up with Rosie and Becky and we had lunch at the park and let the kiddo's play! It was so much fun! Whenever the three of us get together its full of laughs and good stories and just fun! I can't remember a time without those two amazing women! I wouldn't be me without them! After that we stopped at Eric's old work and mine to show off our little man! Everyone loved him! He is quite the entertainer! Then off to relax for a little while with Lisyl and the girls! Later that night Beth, Lisyl, and I went to Eclipse! It was awesome. The next day was spent just playing and relaxing. Later that night we went to Justin's and went swimming and had pizza! That night Eric and Jd went to a movie and Beth and I stayed home. It was so good to have that time to spend talking and catching up! I love that girl so much! She is my bestest friend in the whole wide world! The next day we went to the park with Lisyl, Jeff, and the girls. It was really hot so we went and got ice cream after. It was so great to spend time with my sister. I really miss her living so far away. Sometimes its hard coming home for vacation. It makes me home sick and want to be back and be with all the family! We truly have the best family in the whole world! I love spending time with them and we had such a great vacation!

Gavin in the backseat getting his arms and legs tickled by Grandma Sue on the way down from Idaho Falls!


Playing in the pool at Grandpa Mike's.

Gavin and McKaylee!

Wags and Me!

Baby Addison!

Peyton, Cole, Gavin, and Addison!

Rosie and Addison, Me and Gavin, Becky and Peyton and Cole!

Gavin at Eric's work playing on the typewriter.

Gavin on the Merri-go-Round at South Towne Mall

Baby Lucy all tuckered out !

Justin, Tiffany, and Gavin after the swim party!

Bethany and Sydney!

Eric and Gav at the park!
What handsome boys!

Grandma Allison with Gavin and Syd.

I think we wore Syd out!

We had such an amazing trip! I loved every minute of it!