7 years

Well another year has come and gone. I can't believe how quickly time seems to go by. You know the saying "it gets easier with time?" Well for me I can say that that is absolutely not true. If anything the opposite is true. I think as time passes and I get further along in my life and experience new things I want her here more then ever. This day is always the hardest day of the year for me. I can't help but remember, with great detail, the events of this day. I try so hard to stay strong and not cry and not think about it but that never happens. With out fail I always cry and I always break down. And for me that is unacceptable. I am not an emotional person. I hate crying. I think that is something that I inherited from her. I know it's okay to cry and be sad but I still hate it. I just want her here. I want to talk to her one more time. I want to see her face and hear her laugh. Gosh I miss her. I hate not having a mom. I'm not going to go on and on like I did last year. There really is nothing new to say. I just miss her.